rant

I'm not going to let this go....I am very torn between the idea of making the most of my time alone yet I am also drawn to the idea of having someone in my life...Is that a need to conform with society or is it a little issue that I have? (Must work on this one more)

I've been reading a book called "The Call of Solitude" by Ester Bucchholz in an attempt to understand this conflict. She cites the New York Times by writing "portable phones, pagers, and data transmission devices of every sort will keep us terminally in touch." Terminally in touch. So bloody true. But why do we need solitude then? Bucchholz suggests that we need time alone to help regulate and make adjustments to our lives.

Now this theory I can relate to. I believe that life gets so complicated and quite simply, so messed up sometimes that we need to take a step back to be able to see what the hell is going on.

But why do we also need to have a companion in our lives? Why do I also struggle with that? Bucchholz doesn't really give an explanation about that one but the book is about solitude. Anyway, it's an issue and one I'll struggle with a bit longer.

ho hum...

So what do you think?